This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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This is not going to be one of my longest posts, but it is going to be one of my proudest š
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Just before the annual arrival of the Northerners to our little town last December, the municipality imposed water restrictions due to continuously lowering dam levels. For me, it isnāt such a serious thing, because Iām at work during the day and the most water I use is to shower daily Continue reading
Refusing to put the light on because I didnāt want to be alert enough not to be able to resume the glorious slumber I had been enjoying before, I stumbled to the bathroom to well, expel the demon was causing the stomach cramps that had awoken me. Muttering to myself about the wee hours of a Wednesday morning being a crap time for a bowel movement. I heard a kind of scratchy sound, which I attributed to my medication not being completely absorbed into my system.
Continue readingIt was back to work for me today after a three-week break. It was clearly a good one because even though I didnāt go away, I relaxed so much that when I had to login to my PC, I stared at the keyboard in utter horror. I called our IT administrator and told him itās that awkward moment when youāve come back to work and canāt remember your password. He laughed, stating my holiday was definitely too long.
I love waking up to emails that say xxx liked your blog, or yyy is now following your blog.Ā There is a sense of accomplishment in it.Ā If you want to follow my blog, please do.Ā Or dont.Ā But please share my posts, if you think they’re worthy.
This morning I woke up to find out that a blogger called Tony Self of is now following my blog.Ā That brings the total number of strangers reading the Reflections of this Misfit to 107.Ā Yay! *Awkward happy dance that resembles a frog in a blender*Ā
In just a few of his posts that I read, I was laughing like I haven’t in a long time, because on some levels I can totally identify with the conversations his Conscious and Subconscious have.Ā If you’re looking for some good old-fashioned best medicine, pop over to his blog, The Self-Talk Show
Wishing you all a happy, safe, fun weekend!
I am foregoing my workout today – I am so stiff, even going to pee is a challenge! Okay, so that may be TMI, sorry.
Have a great weekend, everyone!
I have a few photos on my fridge; Happy Memories – Carmen & Ewanās wedding invitation, Mary and Martinās too. Sandra in her bikini on the one day years ago in December that I ventured out to the waterpark with her (and learning that Iām not as young as I thought I was!), Jack and I when I still had my braces (at 28!), an outing to a local wildlife ranch ages ago with The Bean and Aunty Carol one Motherās Day (when The Toppie was still working); Lesley was with us that day, having lost her mother shortly before, so there is a photo of the two of us too, and another photo of Charlie and I, taken last year at the same place.Ā There are photos too of Aunty Carol, Uncle Barry, The Toppie, The Bean and I taken while we waited to board a passenger liner for a holiday, one of Elizabeth and her two sisters taken at Lesleyās wedding (which was on my 33rd birthday), Emma, Nathan and I at his 40th, and one of my precious little Mouse (which is the nickname I have given to my beautiful godchild, Lily-Rose).
Now, I see these photos every day, but honestly, I donāt notice them anymore. Except this morning I did, and my Mouseās smiling face transported me back to the day she was christened, December 10th, 2017 ā and the message the minister gave that day:Ā What’s in a Name?Ā Your Name…
Iāve thought a while about putting my real name here, and for the sake of this entry being authentic, Iāve decided to do so.
Hello World, my name is Priscilla Anne.Ā If The Bean had had her way I would have been Avril.
I never liked my name, until I realized that its meaning is spot on ā Priscilla means āOf Olden Timesā and Anne means āGraceā.Ā Avril means āOpening buds of Spring; born in Aprilā.Ā The Bean sent my biological father (aka The Sperm Donor) to register me, and he came back telling her, āher nameās Priscilla Anneā.Ā For the record I was born in September, on the Equinox, so Avril clearly was never meant to be, although I doubt The Sperm Donor had the savvy to research any name meanings.Ā Ā Avril though to me is worse, because in my warped mind I hear a tinny-airport-announcer-intercom-voice saying, “Ladies and gentlemen, please fasten your seatbelts as we prepare our descent.Ā Thank you for flying Avril airlines.
When I decided to start this blog years ago, Reflections of a Misfit just popped into my head and it stuck.Ā I still have difficulty sometimes accepting that people see me differently (and I mean that in the most positive sense) than I do when I see my reflection in the mirror.Ā Iām the piece of the puzzle that doesnāt quite fit, quite literally a Misfit, but my given names are perfectly suited to the person I am ā I am an Old Soul, who has Grace with everyone, often at the expense of myself (but Iām working on that as part of my therapy).
Thinking back to Lily-Roseās christening, the reading was Isaiah 43:1.
The minister explained that each of us have a name (some of us even the same one), but that our given names have meaning and speak to who we are, and that God knew what our names would be, long before our parents even knew of our existence, referring to Jeremiah 1:5.
Today when I looked at how happy little Mouse is in the photo on my fridge, it stirred something within me, and that is that this Gracious Old Soul is loved and cared for, not only by the earthly angels that I am surrounded by, but by God too.
There’s comfort in that š
Iām starting to feel a bit like a Dumb Belle because itās been ages since I’ve even held a dumbbell, but Iāve got to start somewhere again, right?
In the words of Alanis Morrisette, Isnāt it Ironic?Ā I havenāt had (well, I still donāt) an appetite for almost six weeks, yet Iām craving sugar. In the form of cake.Ā Cheesecake, to be specific. Ā And carrots ā not in a cake, but not raw either. And leeks, so much so that I went to buy some yesterday. And a pepper steak pie ā a borderline-food-poisoning-garage-pie.Ā And no, Iām not pregnant. What I am, is tired.Ā Itās a damn catch-22 situation because if I drink a full dose of the sleeping tablets the psychiatrist prescribed, I sleep for a good eight hours, but wake up tired because the meds have not entirely worked out of my system and if I drink half, I wake up between three and four AM regardless of what time I lay my head down and fall asleep to the beat of my heart thudding in my ears.
In an attempt to entice some kind of hunger for food within me, Iām going back to the gym, under the watchful eye of my friend (and personal trainer), Steve.Ā I have my first session with him tonight, in thirty minutes in fact.
If I donāt post something, even a one-liner, tomorrow, check the local papers for my obituary.Ā I imagine the headline will read something like Crazy Woman Cardios Herself into Cardiac Arrest with the byline Heavenly Heartrate Reached.
Besides the possibility that Iāll want to fill my stomach with more than just rooibos tea, Iām hoping that physically exhausting myself will allow me to sleep through without the daily aid of the sleeping tablets and that Iāll wake up feeling normal (whatever that is). Iām still a far cry from bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, but Iāll get there.
Wish me luck!