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(Picure from katrinleblondblog.com)
“You heavens above, rain down righteousness; let the clouds shower it down. Let the earth open wide, let salvation spring up, let righteousness grow with it; I, the LORD, have created it.”
On Tuesday night I was visiting with friends when out of nowhere lightning began to light up the sky and thunder roared. Seconds later it was raining. Hard! I grew up on the Highveld so I love a good thunderstorm, but here in theCape, they are few and far between. I still said to everyone that this storm signified the first winter rain, the proper change of the seasons. While we have had a few cold days, winter hadn’t really set in. Well, it has now. Jack Frost has set up camp and while I’m not one for the cold, I love the wet weather. It has been raining on and off since I left for work this morning. Aptly “Let it Rain”, by Michael W Smith keeps making an appearance on my random playlist today too. I am just feeling so good – the floodgates of Heaven are open and the rain is cleansing and renewing and God is raining His blessings down on me. What a wonderful day it is!
I want to be the woman in the photo above. I want to dance in the rain, with my head and hands lifted to Heaven, celebrating God’s goodness – celebrating the change He’s made in my life, celebrating His abundant blessings that I so often take for granted.
How many times haven’t you said, “I won’t ever get involved again, because I’m scared of getting hurt.”? I have, more times than I can count. My heart was shattered the year I turned 21, when Peter, the man I absolutely adored told me that he didn’t love me anymore and that I should go back to my parents. I honestly thought that my life had ended, but a mere three months after our break-up, I met Jay though work. We dated for a year and then I ended it – we wanted different things out of life. I know I hurt him, but in retrospect, I think he knew that at the time I wanted different things out of life. He’s married now, living on Mud Island with his wife and children, and from what I can gather, he is happy. Quite some time after that I met Samuel, whom I was extremely attracted to, but he was involved… that didn’t stop me though – in fact, it simply spurred me on to prove that I could have him. Imagine my horror when he cheated on me with the girl I’d stolen him from. Three years later, he’d convinced me that he’d cleaned up his act and wanted desperately to try again. I forgave him, and a mere three months after that, he broke up with me – on FB! I’ve heard of friends of mine getting divorced and people I know having affairs. So I’m sure you can see my aversion to relationships, for the simple fear of getting hurt again.
A friend of mine added me to a FB group in which the women of the group motivate others – most of the motivations are Bible based, and obviously because it’s the month of love, the underlying current has been love in various forms, and particularly God’s love for us. This was posted in the group – and it really hit home.
I know that when I find the love that’s meant for me, I won’t be scared…
I hope this blesses you as much as it did me.