Tickey, Patch Adams, Tobo, Bozo, Laffy … Cathy even had her own one according to the Everly Brothers… If you’re still not sure what I’m talking about, maybe Pennywise will ring a bell with you, although It isn’t a happy one. If you haven’t got the at least one of the references as yet, I’d like to know what planet you’re from.
One of my fondest childhood memories was visiting the circus. Yes, now that I’m older, I do understand that in some instances the animals are ill-treated, but when I was a starry-eyed innocent, knee-high to a grasshopper, the circus was nothing more than a big magical tent of happiness, awe and laughter.
I seldom remember my dreams, but when I do, they haunt me. Last night I had not one, but two, vivid HD dreams, both of which I remember. The first one was about the letter I wrote to my sixteen-year-old-self and the other about me being a clown of all things. The most vivid part of the vision was how I meticulously applied the make-up, creating the perfect alter-ego.
My first thought upon waking up this morning, with salty residue on my cheeks was Robin Williams, one of the most versatile, legendary actors that the world has ever seen. I have seen almost every movie in which he appeared, with Mrs Doubtfire, Dead Poets’ Society and Patch Adams ranking as my top three.
There is an exponential amount of ways to interpret dreams, and just a quick Google search gave a few examples.
According to Dream Moods dot Com:
“To see a clown in your dream symbolizes absurdity, light-heartedness, and a childish side to your own character. … Alternatively, a clown is an indication of your thoughtless or insincere actions. If you have a fear or phobia of clowns, the clown may represent a mysterious person in your life who mean you harm.”
According to Dream Meaning dot Net
Dream About Clown Makeup
“Dreams of putting own clown makeup, suggests that you are putting up temporary façade or smiling faces towards situations that you may not particularly like. You are trying to make people believe that everything is okay and you are enjoying your life, however deep down you may feel depressed and sad.”
According to the media, it was no secret that Robin Williams was depressed when he died in 2014. It’s also no secret, although I’m not sure if there is any medical research to back this up, that the saddest people are generally the biggest clowns; the ones that are able to get the largest laughs out of their peers are the ones that are in the darkest pits of their own minds. It’s tragic irony.
I’m not going to deny that I’m sad at the moment – there is a lot happening that is causing unease within me. I’m not going to spill my guts here as to what, because the nature of the situations is sensitive, and in some instances, quite personal.
Suffice to say though, despite everything that is going on right now, these gloomy trances that disrupt my rest, will be a thing of the past.
In the meantime, I will keep my eye on good things I know are coming and spend time with the people I love, laughing with them. After all, that is the best medicine.